Tuesday, August 25, 2009


I am trying very hard to get back into a regular routine/schedule. Since getting home last week, it seems I can't get motivated to do much or get much accomplished. I have been very tired but am starting to feel more human again. I am sure Hubby will be glad to see me now wanting to sleep all the time!!

Tanner started his new school last Thurs and so far likes it pretty well. He was excited to go today because he was going to PE, that is a good thing I thought. We have explained to him that it will get harder this year and move faster than he is used to but the challenge is good for him. We are trying to keep him as interested in learning as we can. We want him to do really well and pursue his dreams. Unfortunately education wasn't encouraged very well for me or Hubby growing up. I wish it would have been encouraged more so that we would have pursued going to college and getting degrees in something. Tanner is a fast learner and gets bored when things move along slow...hopefully this year will be different! I would rather him have a challenge and have to work a little than to get bored and have no interest. That is some of what happened to Hubby...he is very smart!! So I am hoping the best for Tanner this year at this school!

Logan is doing better slowly from his crazy high fever while in CO. He has taken awhile to not be grouchy/whiny and so sleepy. His fiesty "intense" self is coming back day by day. I am hoping to get him involved in soccer or something this fall to give him something to be involved in. I am pretty nervous for him to go to school. Just being honest! I am going to have the child that is mean to the other kids in class I am afraid! I am working hard to change that but it has been a huge struggle for me!

So besides on getting things cleaned up at home and working on getting everyone on a schedule, there isn't much else to report. With getting everyone on a schedule I am hoping to be able to post on here more. Hopefully next time I will have more cute pictures!!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Back on Tulsa Time

We safely made it home to Hubby yesterday afternoon. It was a crazy day getting home but we made it safe and that is what matters!

I was already a little "concerned" about only having 45 minutes for our layover in Houston so when we got to the ticket counter and was told the plane was about 5 minutes late, well you can imagine the panic racing thru my mind! I was calm tho as I had to be since I was flying with the 2 boys and didn't want them to worry. We finally reached out gate which had to be the one at the end of the hall on the last concourse but not before going thru the HUGE line to get to security, the train ride to the concourse, the "moving walkway" (what are those things called?? Like an escalator but flat, you can either stand still and it takes you or you can walk and you walk it twice as fast as if you were on the regular floor.) and the escalators! Everyone gets loaded on the plane and the pilot announces that not only are we about 10 minutes behind schedule but there is some sort of security breach in the airport so noone is allowed to move til its cleared!!......Just.Freaking.Great! I call Hubby to have him call the airline to see when the next flight out of Houston that we would be able to get on would be as I knew at this point we were not making it to the next plane!

We FINALLY take off, the pilot announces that we should land at 45 after the hour....our next plane leaves at 50 after the hour! Yes that leaves 5 whole minutes to get off the plane and get to the next gate....really not feeling that it is going to happen. During the 2 1/2 hour flight I was able to come to terms with us catching the next available flight. I explained to Tanner that we would have to wait for the next one they could get us on and that we would get something to eat while waiting. We were kind of looking forward to that!!

As we are walking out of the tunnel thing that connects the plane to the airport we hear all 3 of our names plus 2 others being announced to come to gate 50. That happens to be our next gate...huh! We were getting off the plane 10 minutes after our other plane was to depart so I was sure we were not making that plane.....but I was completely wrong! We get to that gate and find out that the plane is waiting for us....how awesome is that??? I text Hubby real fast as we are running thru the tunnel to let him know we would be there at our regularly scheduled time!!!

Now new panic is setting in my chest as I was concerned how my lovely 3 year old would do flying another 1 1/2 hours after just getting off a 2 1/2 hour one....oh boy! And I am so happy and pleased to say that he did wonderful!! Of course they were hungry but there was not one whine or cry about it. In fact there was not one whine, cry, fight, hit, kick, pinch, arugment to be had! It was awesome!!! Long story but we are home...and we are all happy to be a family of 4 again!! I am way happy to have Hubby at my side rather than doing all the parenting on my own!

And now that our huge 5 week trip is behind us, we are trying to get back into regular routine again! I have still not completed unpacking yet but will get it done. Tanner is all set to start his 1st day of 3rd grade at his new school tomorrow. Let's hope that it goes well. He is attending a charter school this year and I hope it is just what he needs to keep his interest in learning and excelling! Of course Mommy has made a deal he can't turn down...so we shall see how this 3rd grade journey goes!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

6 Days til Homebound

We are still here in CO with only 6 days til we are headed back home. I think all 3 of us are ready to go home and back to normal day to day life! This has been a long visit and a little rough on us. Unfortunately it hasn't been the best visit but there have been good things that have came out of it.

Our original plan was to be here for 3 weeks visiting. I was hoping to spend lots of time with Lil Sis, as she is always wanting "sister" time...but that hasn't been the case. Not too sure what is going on but it has been pretty impossible to visit with her. She seems to always have other things going on. I can only hope that things are well with her. There isn't much I can do if she isn't willing to talk to me but I do have peace knowing that I tried pretty close to daily to invite her to do something with me. I am also concerned about my Brother. He seemed ok for awhile but lately has not been coming around and just doesn't look well when I do see him. Not too sure what is going on and again I can't do anything if he doesn't talk either. All I can do is pray that they find peace and happiness. They both know that I am always here for them at anytime!

We ended up staying an extra 2 weeks due to my Uncle's rehab. He was admitted to inpatient rehab just 2 days before I came out here. He was to be there for 28 days and I wanted to be able to see him graduate. I also wanted to spend time with him at home so that is why we are here longer. I am very proud of him and proud to say that he did make it through his 28 days and has been home for 3 days now doing well! I have known him my entire life to drink and in the last few years he also gotten addicted to prescription medicine. Today makes day 31 of being sober from both alcohol and drugs!! He is doing amazing!! It is just amazing (sorry to keep using that word, I don't know of anything else to describe it.)to see him not being in so much pain, to be happy, upbeat, positive, walks not only without a cane but walks FAST! He has attended his daily AA/NA meetings everyday as well as has taken care of several "chores" around the house. It is so awesome and I love him so much!! If it was not for him and Auntie being there for me all my life, I would not be where I am today!! They are truly pillar of support for me and I greatly appreciate them!

So what will we do with our remaining days here in wonderful CO?? We are not exactly sure yet, just taking one day at a time. I am hoping that we are able to take Logan fishing at least 1 time, that is all he has wanted to do since getting here. I am sure this weekend will be lots of fun as the last weekend here.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Our Days

Most of our days here in CO are spent at the park. The boys and I go to a few different parks depending on how hot it is that day. There is one that has a splash pad and river for the kids to play in as well as the usual park toys to climb on. There is another that has tons and tons of geese in the lake that we can feed bread to as well as play and climb on the toys. There have been a couple others that we have visited but these 2 are the main ones. The boys have tons of fun while running around. And since CO isn't the same "hot" as OK, I love being outside relaxing or playing with them. It isn't near as hot here and the humidity isn't like it is in OK. We love to be outside so are taking full advantage of it!

The evenings are spent either getting together with my family for dinner, hanging out at my Auntie's house or visiting someone. Seems most evenings we have something to do these days. I am enjoying to be able to be here with my Auntie while my Uncle is getting the help he needs for his addictions.

These are our days here in CO!
Boys checking out the river

Boys in River (it was cold!)

Tanner floating the River

Cutie Logan & Mommy at Park

Boys all tuckered out!!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Where oh Where Have I gone....

Things have been really busy around here lately. Besides trying to entertain the boys while it rains during the day, I have been going to visit my Uncle who is in rehab.

I was fortunate to spend all last weekend up there with him and my Auntie. We learned all about chemical dependency and co-dependancy. It was a very emotional but inspirational weekend!! He has been there for almost 4 weeks now and will be "graduating" this Sat. He may come home on Sunday but it could be later in the week. He is a little scared to come home, he really feels that he needs further therapy so we will see how that all works out.

I little background...my Uncle has drank my entire life, that is how I know my Uncle. He has always been very special to me as him and I have been close my entire life. I know that he is always there for me no matter what. In the few years he has also become addicted to pain pills, oxy being the main one. He was the one who said that he needed help and that is what he got! To see him now is amazing!! He looks great, he feels good and he is still very funny!! That is one thing that I have loved about him is that he always made me laugh. I was a little worried the first weekend I went to see him that he would be a different person since I only knew him drinking. But he is the same with even better things about him. Everyday we were there this weeekend we would take walks. We walked at least 2 miles everyday and it was hard for me and Auntie to keep up with him, he walks fast!!! I am excited but scared for him to come home. I am excited to spend more time with him here at home but also scared for him. I know he plans to go to AA everyday but besides that I hope he is able to stay busy and upbeat so that he doesn't get down and want to drink. I am behind him 110% and will do whatever he needs to help him stay sober!

It was an exhausting weekend since we drove back and forth everyday which is an hour one way. I was not able to leave Logan all night since he hasn't spent the night away from me since he was a baby. I am very thankful that my Sis-in-law, Brother and Lil Sis were able to help me by watching my boys all weekend. I love family so much cause we help each other out!!

I am off now to take the boys to the park with water sprinklers! It is finally not cool and raining so we are going to go outside for the day!!