I AM BACK!

I am back after a LLLLLOOOOOONNNNNGGGG break!! Things were very chaotic for me and my family the last few months. I am back now and am excited!! I am doing much better than the last few months and am excited about the future! I am also a little nervous as I am taking steps to go back to school to become an Elementary Teacher!! I have had the awesome opportunity this school year to volunteer at my son's school. I have also discovered that teaching is something I am passionate about and would love to do!

I just turned another year older this last weekend and decided that I am certainly not getting any younger....so I need to move forward with my life rather than sit and wait! So I am going forward. That is what also gave me the final push to start my blog again...I can record my progress with moving forward!!

Smart Kid

Now I know that every parent thinks they have the smartest and cutest kid. I am also one of those parents that thinks that I have 2 of the many smart & cute kids out there!!

Tanner was an "alert" baby from the time he was born. He could hold his head up from birth and kept on from there! He currently is getting straight A's in school and still going strong! I am very proud of him and continue to encourage him daily! I have to admit that I have become a little concerned in the last few weeks about him tho....I love him dearly, he is my firstborn son. I am just wondering tho if he isn't going to be one of those guys that is really "book smart" and has no common sense?? I mean he is smart but then the basic common sense stuff he just don't get!! It.drives.me.crazy. And even him having to figure out the simplest problems, he won't get it! But give him something more complicated and almost over my head and he figures it out! I am working on him tho as I want him to have some common sense as well. But if his brain power gets him places in life but he doesn't get how to sort color clothes from whites, well then I guess you take the good with the bad! Or I guess that means he will need Mommy for a long time!! LOL I do understand that he is only 9 tho and has more growing to do so hopefully, just hopefully, that common sense will get thru those smart brain cells somehow!

Now Logan, the 3 year old on the other hand! OH.BOY!! I am a little concerned about what this child is going to do. He is definately smart. He currently can spell his name and even type it on the computer. He also loves watching Ni Hao Kalan, Dora and Diego so that he can learn Chinese and Spanish. This is how smart this child is so far.....

Logan: "Daddy, we don't say ugly words do we?"

Daddy: "No buddy, we don't say ugly words."

Logan: "But we can in spanish."

Daddy: "What ugly words do you know in spanish?"

Logan: "You say them first Daddy.."

He was trying to get Daddy to say them first so that Daddy could get in trouble for it! He is smart I tell ya!!!

Now what am I going to do with these 2 boys??? I haven't figured it out yet but I do know that they fill my heart with so much love & joy! I love them both dearly!!

I Am Back!!

Ok after almost a month gone, I am back! I am dedicating myself to updating this blog regularly! I will admit that facebook has sucked me in and I have spent my extra time playing games on there. But I am back now cause I really enjoy blogging. I got into this rut where I felt like I didn't have anything worth writing about. I read several blogs every night before bed and just felt like I didn't have things to share like they do. But thanks to Emily, she encouraged me to keep going so that my kids can look back one day and read it. So that is what I am going to do!

Things have been really busy at our house with school, me volunteering at the school, Tanner playing flag football, Hubby working. Football is over for this season so maybe that will help things to slow down a little bit. So I am back and I hope that someone reads my blog still. Please leave me a comment and just say Hi!

Thanks Emily for the encouragement!!

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I have not been stressed out at the behavior of Logan lately and feeling like I just want to run away, leaving Hubby to deal with them alone. I would not be that kind of Mom at all!! I have more patience than that and can certainly keep things under control at home.

I did NOT take Tanner to school more than one morning last week in my pj's! I always get dressed before leaving the house.

I did NOT cancel a Dr appt just because I didn't feel like going, I am always on top of things and not a procrastinator.

It feels good to get those things out that I did not do...cause you know if I did that would be silly!!

I have a sick little boy with me today...poor Logan has a fever. He complains every once in awhile that his tummy hurts and that his foot hurts so I am not for sure what is going on. I hope it is a short lived issue cause this week is really busy. I guess I will be missing Tanner's game tonight to stay home with Logan. I really like watching him play so am kind of bummed but it can't be helped! I hope he does well and has lots of fun. He really enjoys playing!!

Hopefully I will be back more often, I really want to post more as I enjoy reading other blogs. I just feel like I don't exciting things to write about like others do. I am off to try to help my little guy feel better!

Strong Willed??

This precious, strong willed 3 year old little boy is pushing this Mommy to her breaking point...quickly!! I have taken today to sit back, take deep breaths and do research! I remember ever since I was a little 4 year old girl that I wanted to be a Mommy when I grew up...umm how come noone told me it would be so trying sometimes?? Don't get me wrong, I love this little boy with all the love I have to give! He is definately my world no matter how many buttons he pushes or nerves he dances on.

I always heard you get paid back for how you were to your parents as a child. I was a good child so what am I needing to be paid back for? I have talked to any and every other Mom, friend, family that I could. I have thought and thought and cried and cried over what to do. There is nothing seriously wrong with him, at least that I am aware of, it is just that he is very strong willed. It doesn't matter what amount of punishment you use on him, it DOES NOT bother him! You name it I have probably tried it from time out, spanking, ignoring, distracting with something else, yelling, talking, removing from the certain situation, taking whatever away....I have done alot!

I have been getting really down and depressed about this as the last week or 2 has been really challenging. He has stepped it up a notch or 2 in the misbehavior department. I have not been feeling that great with the cooler weather moving in and things have been busy for me at Tanner's school. I was starting to not want to deal with him, my nerves were very very short, so I decided to take today to do some thinking, researching, deep breathing and spend some one on one time with him.

I talked to a family member and they really made alot of sense to me. They pointed out that he is alot like how they were as a little child and even explained why certain things he was doing could be happening. That along with the research made everything a little clearer. Now instead of wondering and asking "What am I doing wrong?" I have a clearer picture or what is very possibly happening and as of now seems a little clearer to try to deal with.

In my thinking I also was able to look back at how his daily routine has been really messed up and truly believe that has alot to do with his behavior as well. He also is very sensitive to me and how I am feeling and I also think that plays a part in how he has been. So all these things added together makes me need to go searching for more patience! I am pretty patient but I think I need some more for back up!

I have am satisfied that I have made sense of some things today and am committed to be the best Mommy I can to both my boys! They deserve nothing less!! I am digging down deep within myself and finding more and more strength that I never thought I had. I love both of my boys and they are my world. I want nothing less than the best possible for them and will do whatever is in my power or ability to make that happen for them! So bring on a new week....I am ready to go!!

Lazy Friday

I have been so so lazy today! It is so unlike me to be like this! I changed into my pj's at 5:30pm, even Hubby kind of looked at me crazy! He of all people knows that is NOT like me! I just have not felt all that great the last few days and decided it was going to be a lazy evening.

My week of volunteering for the book fair at Tanner's school ended on Wed...well Thurs really. Wed was the last day it was open and I had to leave early due to Logan getting sick. Fortunately it was a short lived sickness!! He was eating again by that evening! Since I had to leave early Wed, we had to go back for a couple hours on Thurs afternoon to pack it all up. The packing up part went very quick and I was honored to have been asked to be in charge of running the one in Spring by the teacher that was responsible for this sale! It made me feel good that she thought I did good enough job to do it again!! Thurs I was having alot more pain in my muscles but there was also a change in the temperature. That is never a good thing for my muscles!

Today the pain continued as well as just not feeling like I had energy. I took it easy through out the day, only doing laundry and being a Mom. I was able to take a little nap before having to pick Hubby up from work. After getting home, I tried to start cleaning Tanner's room and broke out in this clammy sweat like when you have a fever. That is when I decided to take it easy. I don't have a fever and besides this dull headache and not much "get up and go", I am ok. So the family just hung out and ate pizza. We did all 4 play a few games of Uno. It was bittersweet to play as a family of 4, our little guy is growing up so fast! He can play big kid games!! It was too cute!! It was a nice evening, very not like me, but good. I hope to feel much better the rest of the weekend so that I can get the cleaning done I wanted to.

Volunteering

I have yet to get better about posting more than one time a week...it is a work in progress!

This last week was super duper busy for us! I am on the PTO at Tanner's school and serve on the board as the Volunteer Coordinator. My first event started this last week, the Book Fair. This is the school's 1st year so getting things organized is kind of crazy! It has not been the easiest task to get volunteers for certain events but it is also a work in progress. I have had to be at the book fair alot due to not having enough help. It has been kind of stressful as it is my 1st event that I am in charge of but I would say so far things are going ok! This one is tough since it is during the school day, I am hoping other events won't be so bad! (Hoping....) So this last week went like this:
Monday- Tanner had school, I worked on PTO stuff during the day, Tanner had football practice that evening

Tuesday- Tanner had school, I had a PTO meeting that evening

Wednesday- Tanner had school, I had to be at the school all day setting up the book fair, Tanner's 1st game that evening

Thursday- at school by 7:30am to make sure 1st day of book fair got started ok, watched my friend's 2 kids that day, had to be at the school by 2:00 to help with book fair after school til 4:00 when it closed, had to work the Family Night for the book fair that evening

Friday- at school by 7:30am to open book fair, worked all day cause was short a person due to her child's illness, went over to our old neighbor's house for dinner then to watch a high school football game

See it was a crazy week! Lots of time at the school! The book fair will continue on Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday it will be open during parent teacher conferences so I get to be there that day. Then it will be over!! Thurs and Fri is fall break and I will be glad by then!!

So yeah I am not sure what to think about if I want to do this same position next year. I do have to remind myself that this is the 1st year and all the kinks and crazies have to be worked out.

The boys are doing good though...Tanner is really excited about his football! He had some pretty awesome plays as quarterback. He also got to catch a pass and run for over 50 yards! He is pretty good! I can't wait for Logan to be able to play a sport, should be the spring I hope! He needs something to do!

I am still not fond of this cooler weather but have to just bear it cause no matter what it is coming! I will be so glad when it is March/April! How has your week been going??