Monday, October 26, 2009

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I have not been stressed out at the behavior of Logan lately and feeling like I just want to run away, leaving Hubby to deal with them alone. I would not be that kind of Mom at all!! I have more patience than that and can certainly keep things under control at home.

I did NOT take Tanner to school more than one morning last week in my pj's! I always get dressed before leaving the house.

I did NOT cancel a Dr appt just because I didn't feel like going, I am always on top of things and not a procrastinator.

It feels good to get those things out that I did not do...cause you know if I did that would be silly!!

I have a sick little boy with me today...poor Logan has a fever. He complains every once in awhile that his tummy hurts and that his foot hurts so I am not for sure what is going on. I hope it is a short lived issue cause this week is really busy. I guess I will be missing Tanner's game tonight to stay home with Logan. I really like watching him play so am kind of bummed but it can't be helped! I hope he does well and has lots of fun. He really enjoys playing!!

Hopefully I will be back more often, I really want to post more as I enjoy reading other blogs. I just feel like I don't exciting things to write about like others do. I am off to try to help my little guy feel better!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Strong Willed??

This precious, strong willed 3 year old little boy is pushing this Mommy to her breaking point...quickly!! I have taken today to sit back, take deep breaths and do research! I remember ever since I was a little 4 year old girl that I wanted to be a Mommy when I grew up...umm how come noone told me it would be so trying sometimes?? Don't get me wrong, I love this little boy with all the love I have to give! He is definately my world no matter how many buttons he pushes or nerves he dances on.

I always heard you get paid back for how you were to your parents as a child. I was a good child so what am I needing to be paid back for? I have talked to any and every other Mom, friend, family that I could. I have thought and thought and cried and cried over what to do. There is nothing seriously wrong with him, at least that I am aware of, it is just that he is very strong willed. It doesn't matter what amount of punishment you use on him, it DOES NOT bother him! You name it I have probably tried it from time out, spanking, ignoring, distracting with something else, yelling, talking, removing from the certain situation, taking whatever away....I have done alot!

I have been getting really down and depressed about this as the last week or 2 has been really challenging. He has stepped it up a notch or 2 in the misbehavior department. I have not been feeling that great with the cooler weather moving in and things have been busy for me at Tanner's school. I was starting to not want to deal with him, my nerves were very very short, so I decided to take today to do some thinking, researching, deep breathing and spend some one on one time with him.

I talked to a family member and they really made alot of sense to me. They pointed out that he is alot like how they were as a little child and even explained why certain things he was doing could be happening. That along with the research made everything a little clearer. Now instead of wondering and asking "What am I doing wrong?" I have a clearer picture or what is very possibly happening and as of now seems a little clearer to try to deal with.

In my thinking I also was able to look back at how his daily routine has been really messed up and truly believe that has alot to do with his behavior as well. He also is very sensitive to me and how I am feeling and I also think that plays a part in how he has been. So all these things added together makes me need to go searching for more patience! I am pretty patient but I think I need some more for back up!

I have am satisfied that I have made sense of some things today and am committed to be the best Mommy I can to both my boys! They deserve nothing less!! I am digging down deep within myself and finding more and more strength that I never thought I had. I love both of my boys and they are my world. I want nothing less than the best possible for them and will do whatever is in my power or ability to make that happen for them! So bring on a new week....I am ready to go!!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Lazy Friday

I have been so so lazy today! It is so unlike me to be like this! I changed into my pj's at 5:30pm, even Hubby kind of looked at me crazy! He of all people knows that is NOT like me! I just have not felt all that great the last few days and decided it was going to be a lazy evening.

My week of volunteering for the book fair at Tanner's school ended on Wed...well Thurs really. Wed was the last day it was open and I had to leave early due to Logan getting sick. Fortunately it was a short lived sickness!! He was eating again by that evening! Since I had to leave early Wed, we had to go back for a couple hours on Thurs afternoon to pack it all up. The packing up part went very quick and I was honored to have been asked to be in charge of running the one in Spring by the teacher that was responsible for this sale! It made me feel good that she thought I did good enough job to do it again!! Thurs I was having alot more pain in my muscles but there was also a change in the temperature. That is never a good thing for my muscles!

Today the pain continued as well as just not feeling like I had energy. I took it easy through out the day, only doing laundry and being a Mom. I was able to take a little nap before having to pick Hubby up from work. After getting home, I tried to start cleaning Tanner's room and broke out in this clammy sweat like when you have a fever. That is when I decided to take it easy. I don't have a fever and besides this dull headache and not much "get up and go", I am ok. So the family just hung out and ate pizza. We did all 4 play a few games of Uno. It was bittersweet to play as a family of 4, our little guy is growing up so fast! He can play big kid games!! It was too cute!! It was a nice evening, very not like me, but good. I hope to feel much better the rest of the weekend so that I can get the cleaning done I wanted to.

Saturday, October 10, 2009


I have yet to get better about posting more than one time a is a work in progress!

This last week was super duper busy for us! I am on the PTO at Tanner's school and serve on the board as the Volunteer Coordinator. My first event started this last week, the Book Fair. This is the school's 1st year so getting things organized is kind of crazy! It has not been the easiest task to get volunteers for certain events but it is also a work in progress. I have had to be at the book fair alot due to not having enough help. It has been kind of stressful as it is my 1st event that I am in charge of but I would say so far things are going ok! This one is tough since it is during the school day, I am hoping other events won't be so bad! (Hoping....) So this last week went like this:
Monday- Tanner had school, I worked on PTO stuff during the day, Tanner had football practice that evening

Tuesday- Tanner had school, I had a PTO meeting that evening

Wednesday- Tanner had school, I had to be at the school all day setting up the book fair, Tanner's 1st game that evening

Thursday- at school by 7:30am to make sure 1st day of book fair got started ok, watched my friend's 2 kids that day, had to be at the school by 2:00 to help with book fair after school til 4:00 when it closed, had to work the Family Night for the book fair that evening

Friday- at school by 7:30am to open book fair, worked all day cause was short a person due to her child's illness, went over to our old neighbor's house for dinner then to watch a high school football game

See it was a crazy week! Lots of time at the school! The book fair will continue on Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday it will be open during parent teacher conferences so I get to be there that day. Then it will be over!! Thurs and Fri is fall break and I will be glad by then!!

So yeah I am not sure what to think about if I want to do this same position next year. I do have to remind myself that this is the 1st year and all the kinks and crazies have to be worked out.

The boys are doing good though...Tanner is really excited about his football! He had some pretty awesome plays as quarterback. He also got to catch a pass and run for over 50 yards! He is pretty good! I can't wait for Logan to be able to play a sport, should be the spring I hope! He needs something to do!

I am still not fond of this cooler weather but have to just bear it cause no matter what it is coming! I will be so glad when it is March/April! How has your week been going??

Saturday, October 3, 2009

My No-Good Day

Yesterday (Friday) was NOT a good was a no-good day! It started by me getting woke up way earlier than I had to be up for. That wasn't so bad but I know didn't help with the rest of the day.

I was not feeling that great and hadn't for the last couple days, it had to do with my fibromyalgia. When the weather changes I don't do too well, esp when it changes to a cooler temperature. Most people around me are so excited for fall and cooler weather, NOT me! Fall and winter are very hard for me! I am not a fan at all of this time of year! I do so much better with spring and summer. I may not really like the extreme hot weather of summer but how I feel overall is so much better. This time of year is also an adjustment for me because I have felt so good for the last 6 months or so that I have to retrain myself to slow down and take it easier. That is not an easy task for me at all!!! I like to be up and doing things constantly, sitting and resting is way harder for me than you think!

On top of not feeling that great, this sweet, cute, innocent looking 3 year old....
has been up to some crazy "stunts" if you want to call them that lately! He is definitely a different child from Tanner! Tanner never ever thought of much less did some of the things this child does! So what has he been up to?? Let's see between writing on walls with crayons, deliberately pouring his drink on the floor, peeing on the floor or as of last night before bed...peeing on my living room rug, he also has mastered this
Yes he is covered in pudding and so is the chair! Where in the world did this child come from??

Finally after terrorizing me, he fell asleep like this...
All this while Hubby was at work and when got home he had to go help at his grandparents. Him and his Uncles are putting new floor & cabinets in their kitchen due to a water leak. So he was not home all day or evening to help me. That didn't help add to my no-good day!

But now it is a new day and I can only hope and pray that it will be a good day! I hope you all have a nice weekend as well as myself!